Friend for you Journey

I have been on my spiritual path for years with no one to talk things out with. Hubby is great, dont get me wrong, but his eyes glaze over and cross and then he snores because he just doesnt get why the spiritual side of life is important to me. He was raised in church just like I was but that is where it ended. You put your butt in the pew on Sunday and life goes on. This keeps everyone happy family friends neighbors and the church. End of Story! You just say the right things but you dont have to believe them.
For me its different, my mother use to say "Church is where you go to prove to others you believe in God." and Whats between you and God stays between you and God." but I never once heard her say "Thank God" or I will pray for you" or any of the other church phases. When I was young she took me to church and was even on the church board but then we slowly stopped going. Then at 13 I was invited to help out in the nursery on Sunday and I loved it. Everyone talked about God and what they believed and I loved it all the music the singing the other teens and they were nice to me...some of the time...at lest they wasnt out right mean and rude...most of the time....
I out grow the youth group at 15 and joined the church and the adult Sunday School classes which I loved even more because we had thought provoking discussions! They loved me! They Thought I was Wise and smart! I wanted to be a Missionary or my idea of what a missionary was suppose to be anyways. Think of it like I use to you go to some place learn there culture and belief systems while you teach them what you believe and help them in anyway they need food cloths counseling whatever!
And so I became a missionary but it wasnt like this at all it was more go someplace tell them they are going to hell god loves them them make them feel unworthy of God and show everyone what a big @$$ you are. So I QUIT and came home to my good old church FAMILY. Well if that wasnt an eye opener nothing is!! I mean really my own church family the church that i had joined and was raised in my whole life tried to convert me back to God knowing that I was on a Missionary campus! I was the outsider and I finally new how everyone that walked though the church doors felt! Unloved and unworthy and not good enough to walk through the door much less come to God! So I church hopped and found that it wasnt just that church or denomination it was all christian churches everywhere!
I then started to question the bible and the things that I have been taught all my life. I am still surprised at the Christians that I have asked these questions too. I have had Christians get mad because "How Dare I question God!" and I have had the whole "the Devil is swaying you you must stop this nonsense before Saten take your soul" and of course the eye roll and "Why do you care about all that stuff just believe what the bible says and move on with your life." but I have yet to have a reasonable discussion with a Christian!
Until today that is. Today I found a that a friend that I have recently started chatting with on line and off loves to talk about spiritual stuff as much as I do! I feel like doing cart wheels In so elated! I dont see that happening but believe me in my head you should see the fantastic cartwheels! This friend is my age and we went to school together and ran in the same circles but didnt really hang out. Who knew that our paths would cross years later and bring us here? 
Thank the Divine Powers that Be that I have a new spiritual friend to debate and discuss all this with!
May you also be blessed on your Path where ever it take you!
Truth Seeker